It was a regular weekday back in August. By this time, my family and I had somewhat gotten used to working from home, but things still didn’t seem “settled.” We were struggling with managing meals, work, online schooling, keeping the kid busy indoors, and our own emotional well-beings. As if this wasn’t enough, I got a call from my mother breaking the news that both of my parents had tested positive for Covid.

My mother seemed undisturbed as she explained the situation. I sensed that, rather than talking to me about her feelings, she was trying to console me. We live 400 miles away from each other. The lockdown was still in place and I couldn’t have reached them if I tried. She hung up, saying, “It will all be well. Don’t worry.”

My world had just collapsed. My father has underlying health conditions and, with both of them being ill, I did worry. How would they get the care they needed to recover? How could I not feel despair? I spent the day reaching out to relatives in their area and making frantic calls to friends who wouldn’t mind listening to my deepest anxieties. I was met with pep talks and positive affirmations:

  • “Just try to put positive energy into the world.”
  • “Focus on the good things in your life.”
  • “It could be so much worse — be grateful.”
  • “This too shall pass.”

One response stood out: “It’s okay to feel this way right now. It’s your parents.”

When I heard that, I could finally take a breath. I needed to know that it was okay to feel how I was feeling in the moment — rather than bury my emotions and pretend they didn’t exist.

It took my folks 28 days to test negative. I was mentally, physically, and emotionally drained. And still, the only person I didn’t hide my true state from was the friend who didn’t see my negative emotions as inherently bad. With everyone else, I put up a poker face and said I was doing fine.

One night while trying to clear my mind with some brainless Netflix scanning, I came across a Korean drama, It’s Okay to Not Be Okay. The title brought me back to those stressful weeks — all that pretending. Why was everyone trying to hand me a lollipop when all I wanted was a cup of chamomile tea? What is with all these “sending sunshine your way” and “positive vibes only” messages?  

I Googled it.

That’s when I came across the term toxic positivity. Dr. Jaime Zuckerman, a licensed clinical psychologist and trained cognitive behavior therapist, describes it as, “the assumption, either by one’s self or others, that despite a person’s emotional pain or difficult situation, they should only have a positive mindset or — my pet peeve term — ‘positive vibes.’”  

Dr. Zuckerman is currently in private practice outside Philadelphia. She specializes in the treatment of adults with mood disorders and anxiety. She helps her patients develop healthy boundaries in their relationships and focuses heavily on the negative impact toxic positivity has on patients’ lives, particularly since the onset of Covid. She highlighted some interesting facts about toxic positivity and how we must let ourselves and others feel the emotions we’re feeling in the moment. I reached out to her to learn more about toxic positivity and why it’s bad.

Here is what I learned.

Toxic positivity not only invalidates your emotional state, but also increases secondary emotions.

According to Dr Zuckerman, “The inherent problem with this concept is that we assume that if a person is not in a positive mood (or whatever we think a positive person should look or act like), then they are somehow wrong, bad, or inadequate. The problem is that, when we invalidate someone else’s emotional state — or in this case, when we tell someone that feeling sad, angry, or any emotion that we consider ‘negative’ is bad — we end up eliciting secondary emotions inside of them like shame, guilt, and embarrassment.”

In so many words, we are saying to them that they should feel ashamed of being sad or that they should feel embarrassed for being afraid. “Efforts to avoid, ignore or suppress emotions that are appropriate to context can isolate someone in their time of need, thereby perpetuating the stigma that mental health issues equate to weak-mindedness,” Dr. Zuckerman explained.

It really is OKAY to not be okay.

“Not only is it okay to not feel ‘okay,’ it is essential. An abnormal emotional response to an abnormal situation IS normal. We cannot simply pick the emotions we want to have. It just does not work that way,” Dr. Zuckerman said. So feeling sad and scared about my parents after they contracted Covid was normal. Crying after you get into a fight with your partner is also normal, as is feeling anxious and scared about an uncertain future. When we think we might lose something we care about, that’s sad. When we don’t know what to expect next, that’s scary. We should let ourselves, and other people in our lives, feel these things as they come up — which may be more than usual right now.

Dr. Zuckerman noted, “Allowing yourself not to feel ok involves accepting all feelings, thoughts, or sensations, and sitting with them until they pass. If you try to avoid, suppress, or ignore them, they will only grow stronger and leave you overwhelmed and believing that you cannot cope.”

Remember that no emotion is permanent. Anger and sadness, just like happiness and joy, come and go. We need to let ourselves experience painful feelings if we ever want to truly let them pass through us.

By hiding your discomfort, you’re only adding fuel to fire.

“The more we avoid internal discomfort, the more isolated we can become, the more anxious we can get, and the more depressed we can feel,” Dr. Zuckerman told me. We need to not only feel, but also acknowledge our legitimate emotional responses to situations. Efforts to avoid or ignore them can isolate us during times of need and perpetuate the stigma that mental health issues equate to weak-mindedness.

“When we pretend that emotional pain doesn’t exist,” she explained, “we send a message to our brain that whatever the emotion is, it is in some way bad or dangerous. If our brain believes we are in a dangerous situation, our body will respond as such. For example, we may experience rapid heartbeat, shallow breathing, and a natural need to unnecessarily avoid the misperceived dangerous situation. When we avoid any kind of emotional discomfort, even physical pain, we end up unintentionally making those feelings larger, louder, and more overwhelming. If you don’t confront or process emotions in an effective and timely manner, the science shows that it can lead to a myriad of psychological difficulties including disrupted sleep, increased substance abuse, risk of an acute stress response, anxiety, depression, and even post traumatic stress disorder.”

There is a better way to address emotions.

If you’re still not convinced that being too positive can be toxic, consider its impact on the people you care about (including yourself): You may feel you’re being supportive by sending positive affirmations to a friend who is going through a difficult time, but in reality, you may be invalidating their feelings and harming them when they are already in a vulnerable state. Your positive affirmations create the idea that your friend is in some way incapable of handling their feelings. You may also be unintentionally gaslighting them by signaling that there isn’t really a problem at hand. Toxic positivity tasks the person in need with faking an emotional response that is totally disproportionate to what they are actually experiencing.

When you’re lending an ear to someone in distress, have a positive mindset, but offer them a pep talk unless they ask for it. Dr. Zuckerman suggests avoiding phrases like:

Positive vibes only!

It could be worse.

Just smile, stop worrying!

What’s there to cry about? It’ll be fine.

You have so much going for you; how can you be upset?

Get over it.

Instead, she suggests using phrases that affirm the other persons feelings and lets them know you are here to support them without expectation:

It is okay to not feel okay right now.

You should feel whatever emotions you want to feel.

Take your time. I am with you and I’m listening.

You’re allowed to feel this way. Your feelings are valid.

Feel your feelings. Sit with them. Let them pass. And let others ride the wave of whatever emotions they’re feeling too. It’s okay.

 

Source: It’s Okay to Not Be Okay